Happy Holidays





12/7/2019



Today I put up a Christmas tree. I know it's not much and it's not real, but I spent half the day spreading out all of those little fake branches and I love it.

This actually is a big deal for me because it's the first time in many years that I have "felt like" celebrating. I usually avoid this holiday and all of the hoopla that goes with it. I honestly can't even remember the last time I put up a tree. For years I volunteered to work the holidays so that others could be with their families. I know that I'm not alone in this and that many people get sad this time of year. I miss my dad and his Santa hat, my kids are grown, and my siblings live in several different states. Everyone has their own traditions and celebrations. We don't have the Christmas-movie-version of family. Sometimes it's hard to get past that and do anything more than just go through the motions.

This year, I am happy. I am thankful to be back in a house that I love and thankful to have a peaceful life that I love. So this year, I asked someone to cover work for me so that I could travel to attend the annual Christmas party at Mom's with some of my siblings and their children. This year I will celebrate. This year I will decorate...a little. This amazing house deserves a tree - and so do I. This amazing house really deserves tons of decorations and thousands of lights and maybe on my birthday I will hit the after-Christmas sales and stock up on decorations for next year. This year, I'm starting with a tree.